One of the hardest things about moving to a new place is not having the close friends and family that you had back home. At least that was the case for me. Being back here for a couple of months I’m getting to see everyone and do all of the things that I did here before moving away and I realized that these are some of the things I miss the most. Yesterday, I got back from a weekend road trip with one of my best friends. Last year we did two of these road trips sleeping in the back of the car and exploring California. They’re the best. I assumed that when I moved to France I would do a lot more trips like these, except maybe taking the train or the bus to different places but I realized that I didn’t really have anyone to do it with. It’s hard going from living 2 minutes away from your best friends that you’ve become extremely close to and moving to a place where you don’t have anyone yet. I had so many dreams and aspirations about traveling in Europe and I just kind of got blocked because I didn’t want to go alone but I didn’t know who to go with. I’m lucky to have found 2 guy friends that I grew close to and was able to see London with. But I still don’t feel that I have found friends like back home yet. It’s hard to find and grow close to people that you’ve only known for 3 months and I know that. So I know that as time passes, just like everything else, I will figure it out.
With my other two best friends I got to go to music festival for New Years among other things. I will never ever forget that festival. It was one of the best experiences of my life and getting to do it with two of the people that I love most in the world is just one of the most amazing things. The last 3 months I had been missing this. Missing these life altering amazing moments with people you love. I mean these are the kind of things I life for.
Recently, I began thinking about how my mindset and life is going to be different when I go back and I got excited. After coming home I realized that the close friends I have here are not going to forget about me and that I don’t need to worry about that. I need to stop worrying about what’s back home and instead try to make a life for myself in La Rochelle. I need to stop thinking about what life would have been like if I had chosen to go to school in the U.S. and instead embrace the choice I made to move. I’m not going to lose the people I care most about and home will always be home and somewhere I can come back to. The friends I have here are some of the best people in the world. With that said, I wish all of my friends here in Torrance the best and I hope that we will keep in touch. But I need to focus more on meeting people over there and finding that person in France that I can do road trips and weekend trips all over Europe with. Maybe I’ve met those people or that person but I’m not sure yet. Excited to figure all of this out when I get back but also taking advantage of the time I have at home.